Running From The Quiet
Do you ever just sit? Just sit, nothing else. No screens, no book, no conversation, just sitting. Letting your mind wander, noticing what you can see, and hear around you. I don’t do it very often....
View ArticleWill Therapy Ever End?
Our current therapist made a comment recently that made my heart sink. They said they thought we’re likely to need, at least, some supportive counselling for the rest of our lives. The body is in it’s...
View ArticlePancake Days
A few weeks ago Miss 5 was insistent that we have pancakes for lunch. Having the sweet tooth that she does they were served covered in copious amounts of maple syrup. After devouring them (and more...
View ArticleTrying to Tread Water
I haven’t written a proper post for close to a year. That’s how long depression has been kicking my butt. Not constantly. There have been light, happy, joyful moments and days sparsely sprinkled...
View ArticlePromises
I promised my GP that I wouldn’t cancel my appointment this week. That I’d come even if I were feeling terrible. The promise was made as a safety plan of sorts. A couple of weeks ago I overdosed the...
View ArticleWaiting
Waiting for a phone call that hopefully won’t come. Waiting for the next appointment with my GP (Monday). Waiting to see my psychiatrist (Monday). Waiting, and quietly wishing, that my electrolytes...
View ArticleCancelled
I’m free. No healthcare appointment for three weeks. By chance my next appointment with my psychiatrist is in three weeks, not the usual two. I cancelled the appointment I had with my GP today, and...
View ArticleSick and Tired
I needed a break from healthcare appointments. I cancelled all of my appointments. I was just so tired of talking about my health, my feelings, my thoughts. The break lasted about one and half weeks. I...
View ArticleOutpatient Fail
All of our therapy is outpatient. We see our therapist in their office every two weeks. We talk. They push us to talk about the things we’re obviously avoiding. Mostly it works. Until it doesn’t. That...
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